Fuck Limewire.

No, I'm serious. STOP USING LIMEWIRE!

It gave me the "Blue screen of Death." For absolutely no reason, except I downloaded a song from the 80's.

Seriously, I care about you. So STOP USING IT.

Here's a virus free, FREE alternative, that I love. http://aresgalaxy.sourceforge.net/

a Premonition?

Alrighty, so. I was lying on my bed, when all of a sudden, I get this full body shiver, and everything blacks out, and I have a dream in this dream: I'm about 10 years older, in a nice house in the suburbs. I'm driving a mini-van, and picking up 3 kids from soccer. 2 of them are white, and one was black. The white ones were twins, with blue eyes and light brown hair with red streaks in the front. They looked like miniature Beau's. The black one, looked like me. but rounder and cuter. And they were all calling me Daddy.

Is this the future for me? I actually kinda hope it is. Because I want 3 sons in the future. Artificial Insemination is the way it will probably go down. Unless... Unless we find the perfect children to adopt... Which prolly won't be likely...

I am a fan of adoption, yeah, but I'm starting to see a trend in what happens when people get adopted... the child turns into a "wild child." Often, they have issues with lying, stealing, and other stuff... So, I'd rather the baby be ours.

God... what if this happens? I really hope.. that I'm ready for it. And I hope Beau is too... Since I told him this premonition, we've been discussing it. I think in 15 years, we'd be ready for it... but...

Goddamn, this is really a scary premonition. But it's sweet too.

Stress Load: lightened a bit.

Alright, so. Fuck G-Unit. He's out of the picture now.

I'm going with Belair. :3 Yay! As my friend... my really cute ex-boyfiend. lol

But now, there is another issue: my WISE project.

For those who don't know what that is... that is an independent study, in which you are teaching yourself how to do something. Mine is on "How to write a book." Unfortunately, I think I have to stop.

The Wise Project focuses on the journey, which is documented in a journal. Yeah, a journal. and guess what happened to mine?

Well, I wish I knew what happened to mine. It's vanished into thin air, and I'm too fucking pissed off at my project to continue doing it. I'm gonna just argue out of it. Honestly, I can figure out how to write a book, WITHOUT getting graded on it.

Thats a stress load I REALLY need to get rid of.
God willing I can handle that on Monday.

Wish me luck!
~Vladmyr

UGH.... fricking Prom

Alright, everybody needs a little bit of drama now and again.

Okay, I have 2 options for prom dates, at the moment: G-Unit, from the previous REAL post, and Belair. Lemme give you some background story on Belair.

I have known him for about a year, and this is exactly how it went down. He and I met on the bus down to Pride day. We hit it off perfectly as friends, until that night, at roughly 10:13 pm, at a dance, we were dancing.... and we kissed. It was my first kiss... it was also rather deadly. From his kiss, I contracted infectious mononucleosis. Mono. The kissing disease. Heh, irony. After I told him, right when it got bad for me, he left. He apologized, and ran. But when I got better, he came right back and apologized for leaving. Ever since then, whenever I needed him he's been there. To hold my hand, and help me through my problems. He's been such a great friend, and while we lasted he was a great boyfriend.

Now, for the dilemna with this: Do I go back down this road, and ask Chris to be my date (as a friend) to the prom? I'm a bit worried it'll go how it did last time we met each other... which was in a dark movie theater.... making out while watching Spiderman 3...

No wonder I don't remember that movie, much at all...
Oh, yeah, back to the issue...

What in the hell should I do?

Birthday Videos

I like these videos!





I love these videos.

I'm 18 now. YAY.

Higher Organix: Trial One: Failed

No, don't get me wrong. The party was great. Minus the number of people who were drunk or stoned, or whatever... Actually, no. Even that was awesome.

But one thing happened. And that one thing can ruin a night.

Okay, so...
I'm in the business of Misery, but lets take it from the top.

Alright, so, I saw this boy/guy/friend, whom I've been speaking to for a while now... Ummm, and he will be called G-Unit. Because he lives in a place called Ghent. So, I saw him, and first thing I noticed, was, "HOLY SHIT. G-UnIT IS TALLER THAN ME!!!!!!!!" I was a bit taken aback, this was the first time meeting him in person. The next thing that hit me. "Oh my god, he's really, ridiculously cute. I wanna dance with him." Of course, I had my BFFL T-Tarn give me the low-down of how things were going with him. She said, "Okay, I just asked him. And he said, if you ask him to dance, he will probably kiss you. He doesn't want a relationship (which I already knew), but he likes kissing hot guys."

So, I figured. I'll ask him to dance. And I do. He rejects me. "I'm just too tired. Sorry." And then proceeded to go out to the dance floor and dance some more. What the fuck.

So, then, I thought I'd ask him one more time. He answered. "I'm leaving actually.... can you help me find my jacket?" So, I do. I find it for him. He hugs me, and says, "Thanks a lot. I had fun tonight. Happy early birthday. I'll see you around." What the hell, again. A hug is like second best to a kiss.... but I don't want the next best thing. >.<

Alrighty, so getting rejected kinda ruined that part of the party. the rest was great.

Oh, and Beau. I realize Beau will read this, and I need to stress something to him. I am in love with Beau, so much.... but I have things this year to think about. Like Senior Prom. I still need a date. And I totally, as I was typing this, Just realized I could ask G-Unit. I think I will.... but eh. And yeah, if I kiss another guy, Beau, it has nothing to do with being unfaithful to you. I want to be practiced enough for you, so that I can kiss you in ways you've never experienced before.

Excited by that, baby? I hope so. Cause it's the truth. I'm in love with you, and I will marry you, and spend my life with you. But until then, I need to find some way to solve these issues at home.

Anywho, Now, I turn to Anemone. Dyou think there is something wrong with me? or is it just that he really was tired, and then had to leave? Should I ask him? Should I ask him to Prom "as a friend"? Basically, WTF should I do, girl? Help a brotha out, grrrl?

UGH..... WTF, A REPEAT?!?!

I can't understand this.

Last night, my dreams were cut short a lot of the time. The oddest one, was the one with, me and Gamerboy. I mentioned him in a previous blog.

Basically, we were in a car, and I was just looking around everywhere. I was freaked out because, I had no idea where we were... So, I stop the car, and Gamerboy looks at me, and asks, "Where we going from here?"
I respond, "Where the hell are we?"
He whispered, "It doesn't matter. We're both here."

I'm fucking freaked out about that short dream. I dunno why.

Anemone? Please? Your thoughts?

Legit Prostitution.

Alrighty. So, I legit feel like I'm going nowhere.

And I'm not sut why I just added legit in there.

But Legit fits everywhere, I guess.

So, why is prostitution illegal? Why is it illegal to sell something you own, especially if you know how to use it?

And why the hell is it prostitutes faults if men are dumb, and can't stick with one dick/vah-jay-jay for the rest of their life?

Cutest Moment of my 17th year

OH MY GOD! I feel like such a gooooooood person. :D

so, today, when I was on the ferry, headed for Ellis Island... I saw a little boy, who looked like a 5 year old version of my fiancee, Beau, who was all by himself. He came up to the little cafe on the ferry, and asked the man at the counter for a lollypop. He said, "$2". The kid didn't have enough, so he started to get all sad and walk away. So, I had him add a lollypop to my order, and I ran and gave it to the little boy.

I was proud allll day.

And, just a note.... my Birthday is like, next week. Next monday. OHMAHGOD!!!! I haven't done ANY planning. D:

What will you do for my B-day? lol