Higher Organix: Trial One: Failed

No, don't get me wrong. The party was great. Minus the number of people who were drunk or stoned, or whatever... Actually, no. Even that was awesome.

But one thing happened. And that one thing can ruin a night.

Okay, so...
I'm in the business of Misery, but lets take it from the top.

Alright, so, I saw this boy/guy/friend, whom I've been speaking to for a while now... Ummm, and he will be called G-Unit. Because he lives in a place called Ghent. So, I saw him, and first thing I noticed, was, "HOLY SHIT. G-UnIT IS TALLER THAN ME!!!!!!!!" I was a bit taken aback, this was the first time meeting him in person. The next thing that hit me. "Oh my god, he's really, ridiculously cute. I wanna dance with him." Of course, I had my BFFL T-Tarn give me the low-down of how things were going with him. She said, "Okay, I just asked him. And he said, if you ask him to dance, he will probably kiss you. He doesn't want a relationship (which I already knew), but he likes kissing hot guys."

So, I figured. I'll ask him to dance. And I do. He rejects me. "I'm just too tired. Sorry." And then proceeded to go out to the dance floor and dance some more. What the fuck.

So, then, I thought I'd ask him one more time. He answered. "I'm leaving actually.... can you help me find my jacket?" So, I do. I find it for him. He hugs me, and says, "Thanks a lot. I had fun tonight. Happy early birthday. I'll see you around." What the hell, again. A hug is like second best to a kiss.... but I don't want the next best thing. >.<

Alrighty, so getting rejected kinda ruined that part of the party. the rest was great.

Oh, and Beau. I realize Beau will read this, and I need to stress something to him. I am in love with Beau, so much.... but I have things this year to think about. Like Senior Prom. I still need a date. And I totally, as I was typing this, Just realized I could ask G-Unit. I think I will.... but eh. And yeah, if I kiss another guy, Beau, it has nothing to do with being unfaithful to you. I want to be practiced enough for you, so that I can kiss you in ways you've never experienced before.

Excited by that, baby? I hope so. Cause it's the truth. I'm in love with you, and I will marry you, and spend my life with you. But until then, I need to find some way to solve these issues at home.

Anywho, Now, I turn to Anemone. Dyou think there is something wrong with me? or is it just that he really was tired, and then had to leave? Should I ask him? Should I ask him to Prom "as a friend"? Basically, WTF should I do, girl? Help a brotha out, grrrl?